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Jul. 15th, 2010 | 12:37 am
feeling: contentcontent

So in a fit of boredom today I finally picked up/started reading my bloated flood-surviving copy of Bone Doll's Twin by Lynn Flewelling... Thus far it's really good, though pretty creepy/disturbing. I'm a little less than a hundred pages in and honestly, I'm not really sure why I stopped... I have the other two books in the trilogy too -- neither of them were flood-damaged, thankfully -- so thankfully I'll have some reading to keep me entertained, especially on this evil jaunt to Canada that we are taking. rrrgh. Want mah new compy.

In other news, mama is getting spr srs about getting a kitten. She wants to get one sometime soon after we get back from Canananada. She's been talking about going to the ASPCA in Syracuse to get one since those kitties are litter trained and have their shots, etc, but I just found out that Barb found a poor kitty abandoned in the woods and is looking for a home for it D: My heart goes out to poor kitties like that cause we found Trumpy as a stray and he was my best friend. I dunno. I hope Barb can find a nice home for it. She's like a RL druid, animals inexplicably love her. XD

Got a beta key for a neat looking arcade-style free mmo called Divine Souls. I'll probably end up scrounging money to reactivate my WoW account once I get new computer, but diversity is always fun. Gifani said his copy of Mass Effect is at Dan's and that he'll let me borrow it too, so thankfully I'll have some games to test out the new computer :D I'm verily excited.

The rest of the summer should be interesting between getting a kitten and a new computer. :3

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I just shouldn't think anymore tonight

Jul. 13th, 2010 | 11:46 pm
feeling: excitedexcited
hearing: You Were Meant For Me - Jewel

So today I went to the DMV with mama to sign up for driver's test. August 6th and 3:00 pm! /crossesfingers I'm a lot more comfortable driving, especially in my own car, so I'm really not worried too much. But if I fail, it's gonna pose problems for having car at school. So... just gonna have to practice a lot between now and then and pass my first try :D

ORDERED THE PARTS FOR MY AWESOME GAMING COMPUTER TODAY. They're being shipped directly to Cutler so he can start working on them asap :D I'm retarded excited. I actually went to order everything, then found out the computer case and the motherboard Cutler wanted me to get were both unavailable... so I had to go back in and find some different stuff. I actually like the case I got better, and the motherboard we got ended up being a better deal... I really don't know much about hardware, but Cutler was gushing about how much of a good deal it was. $70 off the original price usually is... I'm just glad everything worked out XD But it should arrive in three days :D So freakin excited

ON THE DOWNSIDE, approximately THE DAY my computer is ready, mother will be whisking me away to Niagara Falls with my aunt for a weekend. ;___; I don't mind going, just... why this weekend? WHY?! ;w;

I'll get over it. Mimic is dying anyways... lagged so bad I had to quit playing Diablo II :\ Ryan and I finished majority of Act II tonight though, so that's pretty sweet. I'm just retarded excited that this awesome gaming computer dream of mine is becoming a reality. :3

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this is where your sanity gives in

Jul. 10th, 2010 | 01:11 am
feeling: contentcontent
hearing: Paralyzed - The Cardigans

So I just bit off a toenail on accident... well, kind of on accident, since I was just trying to chew a little off and the whole thing came off. hurts a little bit... but I've got something to chew on now. :D

Went to see Despicable Me today with mother and we both ended up enjoying it much much more than either of us thought we would. It was really cute! And sufficiently silly as well. IT'S SO FLUFFY I COULD DIIIIIIE! Also actually ended up doing some shopping afterwards... We hit H&M for the hell of it, not really expecting to be there long/find anything, and ended up finding a huge sale and we both bought lots of stuff. I ended up getting a hoodie, a shirt and a sundress... and then I needed a slip under the dress cause it's pretty see-through so I bought one of those too, but the dress alone was $35 marked down to $10... kinda hard to pass up. But I'm like my mom in that getting awesome deals on clothes -- especially high quality clothing -- always makes me happy XD

I also got some new tea from Teavana. I spent a bunch of time talking to the sales guy there debating what kind of tea I wanted. XD I wanted to get some cheaper green tea, but eventually I realized I'm a huge sucker for white tea and I asked him what he suggested. I ended up getting one called 'To Life', which I actually haven't tried yet... But he said it was similar to a blend I tried at the store and it smelled nice, so I got it :3 I just had to finish off the rest of my white chai tonight so I could put the new tea in my tin.

Well, Mimic is on his way to death, I think. It's impossible to play anything with graphics higher than Diablo II... and it's getting to the point where I can't even watch videos anymore. Mimic was always kinda shitty in the first place too. So... I'm kinda ashamed to say this because I hate askin pops for money, but I'm going to petition him to see if he can lend me the rest of the money for the new compy I want, and I'll pay him back when I get the money. I need to get a job this coming semester anyways -- I just wish I could've gotten that factory job this summer :\ I should probably go write up a note to Cutler about how much it'd cost though... He said around $600 but I'm starting to wonder if that's even possible. I hope it is D:

I really wish I had a job right now. I should go look for one, but who the hell is gonna hire someone for a month :| Things are likely to get hectic again fairly soon, anyways... I mostly just want school to start again. Actually, I lie. I mostly just want that new computer. THEN I want school to start. kay.

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I smashed the stars

Jul. 3rd, 2010 | 10:22 pm
feeling: cheerfulcheerful
hearing: Paper Moon - Soul Eater

First of all, I'm not dying! Hooray! Doctorman never did quite figure out what's wrong with me but I didn't feel like death today so I'm recovering regardless of whatever it was.

Currently watching lots of Soul Eater, finally. I have the second opening stuck in my head liek whoa. Even though I don't watch anime a lot, it really does have something of a therapeutic effect on me. Recently I've felt less sure of myself than usual for fear of what certain people might think of me. I realize, at least right now, that this is exceedingly stupid. I like who I am, even if I am dorky and kind of slow and socially inept. I shouldn't worry about somebody not liking me, even if I like them a lot -- I should just be myself, and if they don't like me, oh well.

This was reinforced partially by a dream I had last night where I planned to set sail into the unknown on an adventure and I woke up with some wanderlust. It was one of those days that would've been perfect to get lost on too. Sun shining bright, greeting the onset of your adventure! Now I want to write and draw and probably watch more Soul Eater.

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follow me, yeah, let's go

Jul. 1st, 2010 | 07:42 pm
feeling: okayokay
hearing: Sirens of the Sea - Oceanlab

"What's up, little sister?"
"I uhhhh... might have hepatitis what's up with you?"
"Wait, what!?"

So I went to bed last night with a killer migraine and my stomach's been upset for a while now, so mama finally broke down today and called in for an appointment with the doctorman. After sitting in the waiting room for an eternity, and then another eternity in the patient room, doctorman deduces that I might have hepatitis. FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU--

I'm actually not even concerned about it. I mean, inflammation of the liver -- or any body part, for that matter -- isn't good, but it's not like I put a lot of extra strain on my liver. I typically try to eat healthy foods and I don't drink or anything like that. And I may not even have it, though upon checking out the symptoms, I do have a lot of them. But it could just be coincidence. I had to get some blood work done and they said they'll let us know tomorrow what's up. Awesome.

Uhhhh other news? Finished my two Hilari Bell books (both were awesome, Hilari Bell is incapable of disappointing me) aaaaaand uh... starting to do work on the porch and back yard, then the house will probably be done :3 But with Gram coming home... Nick coming home... and Aunt Brenda coming to visit? Mama and I are not happy. This house is just the right size for me and her -- and that's it. well, maybe a kitty and puppy too, but, you know.

I swear, if mother nature thinks it's amusing to give me weird diseases over the summer, I'm gonna... well, be rather put out, and probably cheer myself up by running up to random people and yelling "I HAVE HEPATITIS!!!"


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dead in the stare of a thousand miles

Jun. 29th, 2010 | 01:48 am
hearing: Wait It Out - Imogen Heap

I can't write lately... I don't know what it is. I really want to, even just LJ entries, but for some reason I've just lost it. I'm so out of tune with myself, it's kind of depressing in a way. I probably am actually depressed -- I feel pretty listless and restless lately. I did yoga for an hour by myself today, then made myself a cup of tea and started reading a book. Hopefully tomorrow I can finally start caulking the porch so we can get it painted, but I don't even know how to work the gun. I can probably figure it out on my own though, it doesn't look too hard.

I'm probably feeling out of it too cause I think I'm a little sick... Or at least mama thinks so. It's at least making me pretty uncomfortable for most of the day. I should really just get to bed and start my day early tomorrow. It'd do me good to keep myself busy with a project again.

I think I can feel myself getting dumber.

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golden sun & silver moon

Jun. 21st, 2010 | 01:34 am
feeling: cheerfulcheerful
hearing: Ok! - Pokemon

Mama: "Don't mind the couch, it smells like 23-year-old boy."
Gio: "... Hey, guess how old I am?"

XD Yeah, so I got to see Gio today :D Ash was over and Gio was leaving Oz to go home, so I asked him if he'd stop by. We didn't really do anything, I just finished the water temple on Twilight Princess and we watched some Futurama. But I was so happy! ;w; I've been looking forward to seeing him all weekend. :3 Course now I want to see him lots more >_< Double sided coins are double sided!

uh... let's see. What else have I done lately? I saw Toy Story 3 with mama on Friday! It was wonderful :D It was really cute and funny and the ending made me start crying D: It was really a good movie... It's showing at the drive in this/next weekend, I kinda wanna go :3 I haven't been to the drive in yet this year.

Oh yeah, brought my GameCube out of retirement. Currently playing Twilight Princess, as stated above, and then I plan to move onto FE: PoR afterwards. :D I'd finish off my Windwaker file but I lent that to Slowbro. We hung out on Saturday, lots of video games and just general vegging out on my couch. Fun times XD

Moar work to do round house... need to weed garden tomorrow and probably mow lawn with evil lawn mower D: Mama did buy lots of pretty plants for us to plant too tho! And I gotta try and put the newly spray-painted fan blades on... I wish I knew how to put up shelves ;_; Mama and I are too scared we'll put lots of unnecessary holes in the wall...

grah. I wanna hang out with Gio moar >_

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Jun. 20th, 2010 | 12:20 pm

I really don't appreciate my brother who is currently in Colorado telling my mom that I don't do anything and that I need to help out more >_< Sorry, Nick... But all I've been doing lately is cleaning up the mess you made when you lived here. =_= I know I should get a job and get my license... But it's not like I haven't done anything at all. Augh...

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making friends with shadows on my wall

Jun. 15th, 2010 | 01:55 am
feeling: contentcontent
hearing: Unwell - Matchbox 20

Hay LJ. I'm sorry I'm still being neglectful. It occurs to me that now that I have actual friends to talk and rant to, I don't talk to you anywhere near as much anymore >: But nobody is ever interested in the boring things I've done with my day so I'm gonna make you suffer through it :D

Stuff's being going fairly good lately. I guess. Gramma's out of the hospital and in rehab since she was laid up so long. She's got a MRSA infection in her wrist and she's stil trying to get strength back, but the antibiotics they're giving her is upsetting her stomach and whatnot, so it's kind of like... she's never really recovering, just going from one problem to another. x_x Regardless, it's a huge relief to see her completely coherent, even if she's back to complaining about everything. I hate going to the rehab center, maybe even more than the hospital, but I'm trying to be helpful and supportive, both of her and my mom. Gramma keeps saying I'd make a good nurse, so I guess I'm at least being helpful.

I want to slaughter our lawn mower. ;__; It's so terrible... It took me like an hour to mow the lawn, and it's not even a big lawn! It probably doesn't help that I was doing it midday when it was balls hot outside. Of course the sun goes behind the clouds AFTER I finish. XD

I'm also convinced the world never wants me to finish reading Crown of Earth... Everytime I sit down to read it, something interrupts me. D: First mama came home from work, then she went to take a nap... I pick the book back up and almost IMMEDIATELY Gio calls me. @_@ want to read that book ;w;

Have lots of painting to do tomorrow... Outside painting too :3 it's supposed to be nice and sunny tomorrow. Oh, and I actually was in Walmart today and I found a dress I like. Buying a skirt from Hot Topic was crazy enough, but a dress? I think I mostly got it cause it was on sale for $9... can't argue with that.

I got some white tea on clearance at Wegman's the other day... and it kind of tastes like coffee o_O But has a slight minty taste to it too? It's weird. I'm not sure if I like it or not.

Recently, I feel less and less like getting involved with other people and just busying myself with chores and whatnot... I've contemplated taking a break from internet, but I think what I really need is a video game or something of the sort to amuse me. :\ Haven't played as much Diablo II lately as I'd have liked, but it seems like I never have time D: mreh!

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the end is uncertain, and I've never been so afraid

Jun. 8th, 2010 | 02:32 pm
feeling: confusedconfused
hearing: Tidal Wave - Owl City

Moved into new house -- it's small but nice. I like my room. We just got internet and cable here yesterday, so I've been without for a while. D: To celebrate, I made myself a paypal account finally. I bought something special with it, though I spent more than I should have, probably. I still need to find Ashi a birthday present!

I'm really conflicted and need some time away. Ryan offered to go halfsies with me to buy Diablo II so I could play with him and I took him up on the offer, cause I really need something to distract me for a while. I'm actually really looking forward to it.

There's been so much on my mind lately. The other night, when I didn't have internet, I was texting Gio, and I must've sounded really out of it, cause he called me and asked me what was wrong. And I just started crying. I don't even know why. But one thing about Gio that really puts him apart from others is that he can actually calm me down and make me feel better. By the end of the conversation he had me smiling. I've never met anyone that could ever do that before :\ Not really.

I dunno. Gram's in the hospital and she's pretty worse for wear, though she was a lot more coherent yesterday. It's kind of scary to go there. Hospitals are hard for me to deal with as it is. x_x

Random entry is random. I dunno.

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